Heeyaa, 

Well, I’m Lauren. I have really unusal nicknames like Laullypop, Laully, Laulen, Lauwen and heaps more, so you don’t need to really need to use them, Lauren’s fine. My Full names Lauren Gemma Hay, my middle name ‘Gemma‘ comes from my star sign ‘Gemini’ as i was born in June. 

Just now I’m 16, and my birthdays on 14th June 1995. I live in North-East Scotland, (Aberdeenshire). At the moment I’m in 5th year (year 12), and plan to be leaving this year but so far it looks like I’ll be staying on till 6th year(year 13). At school, my my 4th year subjects where :Maths, English, History, French, Physics, Art, Computing and Graph Com. From all of these my favourites are Art, Computing, Graph Com, English and History. I am currently doing Higher- English, Art, Graph Com, Computing Information Systems. 

In the future I do wish to become a graphics designer and want to get into Aberdeen Great School of Art- which I’ve always wanted to end up going to since I was a little kid. After that I want to try and get into publishing and doing designs for either magazines or books I’d love to be part of the process of it. Most of all in the future I kind of want to aspire to end up making and writing my own magazine about teenage girls and how to get a better self-esteem and to help with depression or confidence issues. I really want to do this because I think so many teenagers these days fight with there body and mind to find the media’s idea of “perfection” and I want to show that there isn’t actually a “perfection” and the only way you can be “perfect” is if you love yourself and all you are. I know I’ll sound like a total hypocrite because I often hate on my body and shit but everybody does it. But yeah, I just want to try and help girls and guys feel comfortable with themselves and help beat the press and media to show that everybody is beautiful!  

I’m not really friends with anybody from my primary school as we’ve either gone out seperate ways or have fallen out, there is one person I’m still friends with from primary but we’re not “best mates”. 

Out of all my friends the most closest to my heart and the one person i trust the most is Darren. 

Darren is pretty much my best mate but also is my boyfriend and we get along like brother and sisters. We’ve been going out now for 11months and I must say, for my first ‘proper’ boyfriend, he’s totally shown me not all guys ain’t the same and won’t all treat you like shit. From meeting him in May ‘10 we did instantly click, I don’t know if it was cause me and him had kind of been left to speak after his cousin (my best mate at the time), was busy looking at the booklet he gave her or not, but we did click, and fast. If I had to go through all the shit again to meet him, I would he was worth the wait, and I really hope I stay with him in the future, as Ilove him so much. I can’t wait till the 23/05/2011 cause it’ll be our one year anniversary. 

Over the years I’ve changed so much and I would say in all points. When i started secondary school, I had a short fair hair, with a full fringe, had a strange fashion style, wore no make up at all and was really quiet. Now? longer brown hair, with side fringe, and a casual/cute fashion style, wear quite a bit of make upand its hard to shut me up (guessing youve gathered that bit now?) But really I’m not much different from how I started then. 

In all honesty, I’ve changed mostly in the past year or so, I don’t know why, but maybe just been influenced by friends and tv? I would say I’ve changed for better though, as I don’t think I could get far in life acting like a really quiet like I was in 1st year (Year 8). 

Generally, I like to keep little things that remind me of something, or someone. Like I’ll keep tickets for cinema, or train/bus tickets, or a toy or gift from a friend. Like my blanket I got from my grandma when i was about 5 as it was a cold night coming home, and I still have it after all these years, and do plan to hand it down to my own children (if i get the chance).

My family are amazing, I wouldnt be anywhere without them. I live with my mum, dad and older sister. My mum does so much for me and my sister as she irons, cooks, cleans ectect.. and I do take it for advantage sometimes. And same with my dad tbh, he does the shopping, fixes mine & my sisters stuff when it breaks. And for my sister? We argue, a lot, espically now a days :/ but I love them all a lot and wouldnt be here without them. 

Friendships and relationships mean a lot to me, as the people who are close to me are generally the ones who cheer me up. I know for a fact what it’s like when you think you can’t rely on anybody. Specially in 2nd year after I fell out with the majorty of my friends, I was a loner, literally. Wasn’t liked by my peers and didn’t have much friends to support me, it still gets me down when i think of how life was like back then as if i could go back in time and change things I would cause it was really bad but also I wouldn’t cause it’s shown me that everybody needs somebody and that you shouldn’t slag people of just cause of the way they look or act cause they’ll be another layer to them underneath. Up to this day, I still get bullied and teased, people say to me they don’t see why as im nice or I am pretty or whatever But in all honesty I think some people still see me as that 2nd year kid, but im not im so much more, I’m so different. I’ll get called ‘Subo’ as in Susan Boyle from Britains Got Talent from a few years back, or I’ll just get called the usual shit. I hate it when people get bullied, or sterotyped or judged when people don’t really know them as it means your not really giving them a real chance and just put them down inside and on the outside. Sometimes people find it hard to stand up and become themselves because of this, I’m just lucky i found myself before I became hidden from the world in all honesty.

My life generally resolves around music, with it, it can pick me up and make me feel better. I listen to soo many different types and genres of music but they all have different life stories and stuff so just helps you more i guess? Some of my favourites include: All Time Low, Every Avenue, Paramore, JLS, Tinie Tempah, Bruno Mars, You Me At Six, Marinas Trench, Biffy Clfyro, A Day To Remember, and many more.

I haven’t really used Tumblr properly for that long, maybe from about November? I also use other websites including DevinatArt, Facebook, and Dailybooth. If you want the links to any of them just message me ok?

I had no idea i could really write this much in all honesty and I doubt many people have read all of this tbh aha! but if you have thanks, its great to know some people care that much. If you want to know anything else, of just a general chitchat message me. :)

Might add to this, so watch this space! ;D